Rainy midnight

Gosh, it's been quite a while, hasn't it?

Well, what better time to revive my feeble attempt at blogging than at midnight on the day of my exam. The merry season is upon us again. Or at least upon the likes of myself, who can't get their act together soon enough to enjoy a carefree holiday.
That would be just waaaay to boring, I guess.

But just to think how this time one year ago, I was in idle preparation for my 5-month student exchange to Spain. Ugh. So full of anticipation and excitement (and also slight depression), waiting to be flown into the unknown, all on my own, ready to take on the indepedency process. And I did it quite well.

Except that I came back home in February, and been caught in a slump ever since. I didn't follow up on my studies. I didn't get a summer job. I hardly did anything but binge watch series and read. And feel sorry for myself. Which is okay ... Every now and then. It is not okay, however, when this becomes a lifestyle. This isn't even a comfort zone anymore, it's straight up hide-and-seek. I'm hiding away from the responisibilities that a 20-sth girl should take on. My procrastinating abilities are like no other, believe me. I always used to postpone obligations till the very last minute, I'm not denying that, but lately it's not so much postponing them as it is straight up ignoring them. And time just keeps running out. And I don't understand how I keep trusting myself when I decide I will definitely do things differently from now, I will do them on time.

Yet, I never do.

So instead of actually preparing for my exam in 13 hours, I rather opted for updating my blog that's gone without a post for years.
Oh well. At least something made me do it.

Cheers x
And wish me luck!