The Crazy Cat Lady

Houston, I have a problem with that.
I'm not really into cats.

So this whole idea of becoming a crazy cat lady doesn't really work for me right from the start (setting aside all that not-wanting-to-end-up-alone extravaganza).

I've been giving the whole idea of love and partnership a lot of thought. At least lately.

As a kid, I didn't really question it but I had rather internalized the socially accepted idea of it. You grow up, meet a special someone, get married, and start a family. Piece of cake!

A few years had passed. I started to get the taste of the "dating world". Nothing major but enough to make me see why adults don't buy the sweet fairytales the popular culture tries to sell us on a daily basis. And why maybe I didn't want to get married at all, if every third marriage ended up in divorce (excuse my ishy knowledge of the marriage statistics). Hey, I don't even need a man (to make it happen, I'll get up, do my thing..na na na). Songs that empower a woman's independence were on the rise. Single Ladies, (before mentioned) I Don't Need a Man. It was a whole new concept to me. Maybe I didn't even feel like starting a family, ever. I questioned everything that before had seemed like something that would eventually happen, 100%.

Now, at the age of 23, I try to balance both views into one flexible perspective. I do feel strongly about a woman's independence and empowerment. I fully suppprt it and aspire to become a woman like that one day. I want to work on myself without being defined by another person. As an introvert, I don't mind spending time alone, I even prefer it. But sometimes it gets lonely. And despite hoping to build up my individuality rather sooner than later, I still want that special someone beside me. Someone to make me feel loved. To make me feel safe.
Not something a 21st century young adult female should be saying, huh?

But to each, their own. I know I wasn't born to walk my path alone. I need a partner by my side. Maybe not my other half, but another wholesome person with whom I would create a brand new entity. You know?

It's late. I might be making absolutely no sense. But that's okay. My train of thounght confuses me, as well. ;-)

Good night, loves xx ♡